Monday, November 24, 2014

I Was a Bird On a Powerline Feeling Okay


Like a bird
on a powerline
I bore the winter's
wind to hang high,
and look down on
those happy people
and await
the crumbs
and hot dog pieces.

I watched them and
began to hate them,
in their two-legged
lowering flight, in their
hollow ways
and irreverence.

And the hot-dogs and crumbs
they made me love them.
I felt a way like maybe they
were not so bad.
And they all aren't!

My wing was broken from
the birthing tree,
and one of these
people
placed me back in the nest
to heal
and try to fly again.

(But many believe that to touch you would alienate you,
and laying soft-bodied on the ground they would
callously pass you by, as if to shun you from memory.)

Sitting lightly on a powerline I
still wait
for the odd
hot-dog or
the new puddles
on the clean
asphalt to
preen and bathe, and I
often decide to leave my
Signpost roost
and spend the night in
the pine trees and bamboo.

There I eat the seeds of grass and the
insects of the night
and I shiver in the wilderness cold
and the feelings
I had for those crumbs and people
fade away
into the hiss of wind
and rattle of
pine needles.

I thank them and forgive them
and may
one day
forsake them.

Thursday, November 13, 2014

*Makes Crazy Gesture With Finger Beside His Head*


All at once
I saw
for a fleeting
moment
That Flash of
your flaxen hair
in the lights of
trash can bonfires;
but I was mistaken.

It was only a drummer for the band
and he
had not
your countenance
nor ever
will anyone
else.

And somehow I knew
that you'd
lose your phone
that night
and it hurt and burned
like a bullet
remembering
that you
are
diseased.

Diseased and dying, through
no fault of your own
and I in my ignorance cannot see
the sores
and welts
and lesions
that make you
the way you
are.

So I forget
I treated you like an athlete
when you should
have clearly been on the bench, or
in the hospital.

When I heard
you had lost your phone
later,
and my
suspicions were
confirmed,
I knew
then, and only then,
that the alcohol
wasn't the only thing
making you forget.

Somehow you forgot,
through no fault of your own,
and I in my ignorance
raged against the dying mind
like I could change it, like
you might
suddenly be cured
by
 a
   verbal
slap
or
dis       jointed
kindness and strength,
a
              hug
here or a
                 shake there
could bring you back to the world of
the living.

Hubris is the fatal flaw of many men
and I too
succumbed to it: Thinking that I was
stronger than
Any disease!
especially
one that inhabited
another.

I have been the bearer of
both the lash
and the stroke,
and to stripe the back of
another
only to
see the blood
after the fact
makes me recoil
from myself
in horror.